I've got a story to share that is not related to politics or my opinions. typically, I write about contemporary events happening worldwide or in Indian politics. Well this time I've bring an old memory and this blog is my experiement with writing.(kyu gandhi ji ki kitab ki yaad aa gayi ?) a blog that's all about my stories, other's stories and opinions. So, without further ado, lesssgo

My friends describes me as kanjoos (I googled what it is called in English so it respond by saying: stingy) lol Hindi wala he acha he, it gives a different feeling when you speak that word. Anyway so I'm actually stingy and I accept it, I don't feel like spending on anything unnecessarily but I find I'm over stingy like I always sprinkle water over my burning desires every time just to save an extra penny. And sometimes I lose my time in thinking and contemplating my purchase. Well, whatever Your present behaviour or personality is a result of your circumstances, situations, or memories and I also have some memories behind my stinginess due to which today I either refrain or reluctantly go to shop or just regret over my old purchases. I am terrible at buying things.

However, I wasn't always like this. when I was a kid like any other kid I also do so many nakhre (tantrums/dramas) I used to buy so many toys 🧸 and was so stubborn. But as I grew I started understanding the value of money and as my mommy is a single parent who alone earned. so, I learned the value of money better than other kids. But there is one memory not exactly one but there is a series of things that made me like the person that I am today. There is a series of things that made me the person I am today, but one memory stands out as the most probable reason.

So when I was in class 5th or 6th I got a new obsession which was to have an expensive pen of 30-40 ₹ and you might have guessed this obsession comes from classmates. So I started demanding pen and finally, after so many weeks of repetitive demand my mommy took me to a nearby stationery and we saw so many pens however, at the shop, I lost interest in pen, don't know why but maybe because of the prices. So we bought a 20₹ pen 🖊 my most expensive pen ever till date. 🙃 but soon I realised it's not worthy isse acha toh mera 3 ₹ wala pen chalta hai lol and today also I use 3₹ pen or max 5. Well back to the story so after coming from stationary or perhaps before going there (I don't remember exactly) my mommy that day told me how people earn money, see I earn alone and you shouldn't be stubborn like this and all and I started realising everything, I cried for my stubbornness for toys, colours boxset, pen and so many other things. And after that day and after my so many unworthy purchases. I understood, now I'm so reluctant to buy anything or eat outside. Now unless someone gives me things or takes me forcefully to shop forget I myself will go to shop. But yeah I do shop for one thing by myself that is books 📚 and though here also I'm a little reluctant but not that much because I know it's not a purchase, but it is Investment :) will give me higher returns.

So yeah this is why I'm so kanjoos or say stingy for English folks. This is the one memory that I've with me, to make me aware purchases. However, still I'm so bad at buying things. Today also I think too much about money 💰 price tag, etc. And that is why I've never gotten full satisfaction out of anything. Well, satisfaction se yaad aaya indifference curve of economics if you have studied economics you might know. so bye mein chala(I am going) to study. until then you tell me in the comments what's your favourite memory or how much you liked the story. I'll see you soon with another one ;)

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